INSECURITY . 

self-doubt,

diffidence, 

unassertiveness, 

timidity,

uncertainty, 

nervousness, 

inhibition, 

anxiety,

worry,

unease. 

not absorbing in aesthetics , 
Not letting others' shallow characteristic(s) influence my esteem 
grew up in timidity 
my past relationships contributed to feelings of low self worth

As a female it's very difficult to not struggle with this taboo sensation of 'insecurity'. From our hair to our asses and pimples. Loving yourself takes practice and doesn't just happen overnight. Without caution one can spiral into a gutter of distaste and disgust with herself. the opposite sex has no stake in these feelings but seemingly they do. all it takes (took) is one comment, one look, one action to tear away at those bricks of worth you built up. Founding security in YOU is no docile task. the glitz & glam surrounds you ; they tell you the status quo, you compare, you fight to fiddle inside the mold. Nu-uh. timeout. Ladies. Too beautiful for all of this. Too damn beautiful.  

insecure |ˌinsiˈkyoŏr|
adjective
1 (of a person) not confident or assured; uncertain and anxious : a top model who is notoriously insecure about her looks | rather gauche,